Because adopting a baby is such a huge decision, you will experience many emotions during the process. Some of them will recur over and over and you may not know how to handle them. Here are three of those emotions and some tips on how you can move through them.
1. Loneliness. Since most (if not all) of your friends and family will have their families naturally, you may often find yourself feeling lonely. People who have not gone through the process of adoption have a hard time understanding how challenging it is. It is extremely important that you find a support network of others who are in the adoption process. There are groups online or you can talk to your adoption agency about local groups. Having people around you who understand the ups and downs you are going through will make a huge difference.
2. Depression. The adoption process can take a long, long time. It is a huge waiting game since you don't know when a birth mother will choose you. After you have found an agency, created a profile, and done a home study, there isn't a lot you can do. Most people have multiple "leads" that don't pan out before they find their child. Depression can easily set in. Consider seeking therapy if this is the case for you.
It is also important to learn how to handle emotion. The more you try to suppress your feelings, the larger they will grow. Try:
3. Indifference. You may find yourself unable to think or feel anything for awhile. This is perfectly normal, especially if the process takes a long time. Acknowledge your need to have some space from the whole process. Leave your profile where it is and take a break. Don't follow any leads. Don't worry. Enjoy being yourself for awhile. Be careful to not make any decisions while you are feeling this, though, because you may regret them later. If you wanted a baby badly enough to begin the process, you will want one badly enough again later. Rest, but don't lose hope.
Remember, if you try to suppress the negative emotions, you will also suppress the joy. Picture an old fashioned scale. All the negative emotions are on one side and all the positive are on the other. If you live entirely on either side, the scale won't balance and you will feel tired and depressed. The only way to balance the scale is to experience every emotion. The challenges you are experiencing now will be well worth the joy in the end. Embrace every emotion and you will have a wonderful, fulfilling experience overall.
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